In Your Hands

1 Do not fret because of evil men

or be envious of those who do wrong;

2 for like the grass they will soon wither,

like green plants they will soon die away.

3 Trust in the LORD and do good;

dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD

and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD;

trust in him and he will do this:

6 He will make your righteousness shine like the dawn,

the justice of your cause like the noonday sun.

7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for Him;

do not fret when men succeed in their ways,

when they carry out their wicked schemes.

8 Refrain from anger and turn from wrath;

do not fret — it leads only to evil.

9 For evil men will be cut off,

but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land.

10 A little while, and the wicked will be no more;

though you look for them, they will not be found.

11 But the meek will inherit the land

and enjoy great peace.

12 The wicked plot against the righteous

and gnash their teeth at them;

13 but the LORD laughs at the wicked, 

for he knows their day is coming.

14 The wicked draw the sword

and bend the bow

to bring down the poor and needy, 

to slay those whose ways are upright.

15 But their swords will pierce their own hearts

and their bows will be broken.

16 Better the little that the righteous have

than the wealth of many wicked;

17 for the power of the wicked will be broken,

but the LORD upholds the righteous.

18 The days of the blameless are known to the LORD,

and their inheritance will endure forever.

19 In times of disaster they will not wither;

in days of famine they will enjoy plenty.

20 But the wicked will perish:

The LORD's enemies will be like the beauty of the fields, 

they will vanish — vanish like smoke.

21 The wicked borrow but do not repay,

but the righteous give generously;

22 those the LORD blesses will inherit the land,

but those he curses will be cut off.

23 If the LORD delights in a man's way,

he makes his steps firm;

24 though he stumble, he will not fall,

for the LORD upholds him with his hand.

25 I was young and now I am old,

yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken

or their children begging bread.

26 They are always generous and lend freely;

their children will be blessed.

27 Turn from evil and do good;

then you will dwell in the land forever.

28 For the LORD loves the just

and will not forsake his faithful ones.

They will be protected forever,

but the offspring of the wicked will be ut off;

29 the righteous will inherit the land

and dwell in it forever.

30 The mouth of the righteous man utters wisdom,

and his tongue speaks what is just.

31 The law of his God is in his heart;

his feet do not slip.

32 The wicked lie in wait for the righteous,

seeking their very lives;

33 but the LORD will not leave them in their power

or let them be condemned when brought to trial.

34 Wait for the LORD

and keep his way.

He will exalt you to inherit the land;

when the wicked are cut off, you will see it.

35 I have seen a wicked and ruthless man

flourishing like a green tree in its native soil,

36 but he soon passed away and was no more;

though I looked for him, he could not be found.

37 Consider the blameless, observe the upright;

there is a future for the man of peace.

38 But all sinners will be destroyed;

the future of the wicked will be cut off.

39 The salvation of the righteous comes from the LORD;

he is their stronghold in times of trouble.

40 The LORD helps them and delivers them;

he delivers them from the wicked and saves them, 

because they take refuge in him.

~ Psalm 37

Lord.

Today I fasted 12 hours - believing for LY's husband to slide back to you, and to hear clearly about my move...

I went to buy my gym shorts. As I was returning from the ATM to the store to pay for my purchases a young girl stopped me and I gave her a nasty look. But she persisted. It was a fundraising effort for High Point. Holy Spirit spoke "Give her $50." I thought "That's nuts, I'm trying to save money!" I tried to shut off the voice - I let her keep talking. The name didn't grab me - till I looked at the address and it was in Geylang. I looked closer and I saw Daniel Jesudason's name - and remembered we met at UNIFEM. He ran a church that reached out to prostitutes. That was you, talking to me about WMD again - third time in a row. I know it is my destiny. So I gave her $50, and we chatted about High Point, and about her waiting to go to NJC.

Lord - you made a point. I know I've stopped giving - I know I give grudging to you now, in church. I'm defending my giving "$80 - Lord it's okay right?" I know I haven't really sought out who to help - been a long time. I remember the days I had a couple of hundred to my name, and I had your Spirit and I gave, happily, joyfully, knowing it went to someone You cared about.

What happened? Why, when I have more now than I have ever had - a great house, a stable job - am I scrimping? Why am I running scared? I had prided myself on the one area - I thought I'm the best giver ever. But my motives have been wrong. Lord, I repent.

I have not given in love. I have not looked for someone to give to, to bring Your love to them... Lord, I'm sorry.

Father please accept my offerings. All I have is yours - I've said it, now I want to mean it. I have $15000 in the bank again ... it's all I have. I have to pay my bills, which are now substantially more... But Lord, You said in your word, do not worry about food or what I am to wear. I know you will provide - I believe it, I confess it, that You give me the power to get wealth, and I shall use that power, and I will get wealth.

But Lord YOU are my precious. You have given me everything else -I don't want everything else to be my precious -I want YOU.

Lord, draw me close to You. Never let me go. You're all I want. Bring me to the next level - closer, closer to You. More of You. I want to know You the way You know me...

T